When I was at my sickest, it was pretty hard to be grateful for anything. I was hurting. I was in pain… and being sick is depressing… so I was depressed. When I went to the doctor, they seemed to want to focus on the depressed part.
I can’t tell you the number of times I was offered counseling or a psychiatrist. I was sick for 20 years. I never accepted drugs as the answer to my depression. I insisted I was not depressed, I was in pain.
That’s not to say I didn’t self medicate. I have had my battles with addiction: booze, pain pills and recreational drugs are temporary escapes from pain and I have used them all over the years… but not Psyche drugs.
I wonder if I would be a different person if I had accepted any of the drugs doctors offered to “help” with my depression. I wonder if it is the drugs that kill and not the disease. After all, drugs add one more toxin in an already toxic world.
There has never been anything wrong with my brain that adding drugs could fix. I was in pain. Pain can be depressing. Pain can be all-encompassing. The pain was from toxins. Now, I know that.
I had mercury, lead, toxic mold, mycotoxins, Lyme, Bartonella, Mycoplasma and probably more. Those are just the toxins I know about and that I tested positive for.
It took me 20 years to figure it out.
Get rid of the toxins and I would be better.
Oftentimes I read, “Change my thinking and I can change my life.” That’s true. As long as you are not being poisoned.
I have to admit… this has been a difficult week for me.
A couple of suicides in a row have made me think about a couple of suicides from earlier in my life and I have cried a lot. Plus, my kids moved out and that has had me crying. I feel more toxic now that I am back in New York and I felt great in Hawaii… and feeling sick is not easy to deal with.
Is my crying a sign of depression, overwhelm, toxicity… or a combination of these things? I’ve been trying to figure that out…
First, let’s make this clear: I am in no way in danger of committing suicide… so don’t worry.
What makes me different from the people who decide to commit suicide?
According to Pop Chassid – Robin Williams did not Kill himself
The disease killed Robin Williams. It was a great blog post about suicide and it really made me think.
I think the toxins killed him…
Our world is very toxic.
When I figured this out, it changed my life. It changed my outlook on disease. All disease is caused by toxins. Even mental disease. My brain was affected by the toxins… and it is relieved when I detox!
The addition of toxins to a brain can frazzle anybody’s thinking. Has anybody looked at what Robin Williams was prescribed when he was released from rehab a month prior to his death? Has anybody tested his house for toxins?
For me: I know what is happening today is a temporary problem.
- If my house is making me sick, I will clean it or move.
- If the chemtrails are making me sick, I will move if I have to.
- If it is something else, I will find it and eliminate it from my life.
I am going to test my house for toxins to see if it is the house. I have gotten well before and as long as the toxins going into my body are less than those leaving my body, I will get better every day.
That’s my equation for getting well.
Toxins in < toxins out = better health
Every pain I feel is bringing me one step closer to wellness. And as long as I am not being poisoned… right thinking can bring any body closer to wellness.
I was challenged to post 3 gratitudes a day on facebook and I did not do it yet, publicly. I write my gratiudes on index cards, daily.
- I am grateful for clean air to breathe.
- I am grateful that I am learn more about health every day
- I grateful for the faith I have in the law of attraction
We are what we think!
So choose good thoughts!!
Gratitude and health are linked and when you start being grateful today… what you think about will expand and you will have more of it. It’s really not more complicated than that but it takes practice. And no amount of positive thinking will help if you have toxic air, food, water or drugs going into your body at a faster rate than your body can rid itself of the toxins.
If you want to: I challenge you to post your own gratitudes… 3 a day, 1 a day, however many you are comfortable with, for however long. I am not going to name people and challenge you. If you want to post your gratitudes online… do it. If you don’t, don’t.
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I’d love to hear more of your thoughts!